Who Am I Really?

I don’t know about you, but I really dread having to introduce myself to a group of people, and it’s due to the fact that I have a hard time labeling myself or putting myself into a box. My younger self said what I thought the audience needed to hear, which is what I needed to hear to, “I am smart enough to be here and this is why”. Then, I would rattle off my “successful” labels to insure I got the buy-in from the group. It never set right with me because I knew this was my Ego speaking.

Now, 20 years later, with lots of spiritual and energy work, along with MANY therapy sessions, I am knee deep in unlearning what I need to so that I can connect to my true Self more often.

I am still beautifully broken, and my pieces are full of glitter.

I still stumble when someone says, “Jenelle, please tell us about yourself”. Because now, after a lot of work of myself, I want to shout from the rooftops, “I am a spiritual being having a human incarnation and I mess up, and I am still learning to unlearn all the things.”

And, by the way, my mess ups have led to many woke moments.

So now when someone asks me, “Jenelle, please tell us who you are and what you do.” I am learning to ask them do you have some time to spare because I am many things in different moments of energy.

Right now, as I am writing this I am b

oth calm and full of energy about living my life for me. I am a

nxious and scared about breaking out of my safe shell. I am absolutely f

ascinated by squirrels playing so freely and without fear on 40 ft. pine trees. I am a

strong presence that also experiences weakness. I am beautifully imperfect. I am c

onnected to an energetic presence that is never in absence. I am c

o-creating my life with the divine energy that surrounds me. I am f

reaking hilarious and a great storyteller, so I believe. I am c

reative, but not sure at what or how. I just know that I am. I am l

oving, kind, brave, and vulnerable. I am a

n open book. Ask me anything. I am a

seeker, a healer, and a sharer. I am a

work in progress, but I believe that’s my journey while here on Earth school.

The courage to stop labeling myself to please my Ego and others has been stewing for a little while, but I just didn’t know what to do with it. Then, I got several signs from the Universe to move forward and put words to my feelings. Some of the signs came from brave people I have never met before, only read or heard their stories. You see, when you listen from a place of curiosity and not judgement, you learn things.

And many of those people have changed the way I look and see the unfolding of energetic experiences happening all around us. Waking us up!

I seriously owe a huge “THANK YOU” to those who are busting through the barriers and labels that we have been spoon fed forever. Those individuals who are so vulnerable and brave to say, “NO MORE!” I won’t conform to your way of thinking and I am going to challenge you on gender identity. I am going to challenge you on a woman has to be a mom to have value in this life. I am going to challenge you that a man can’t be a stay-at-home dad. I am going to challenge you on what a married couple or a family looks like. I am going to challenge you when you say racism doesn’t exist. I am going to challenge you that dresses are only for women. I am going to challenge you that girls must be quiet and please everyone, and boys don’t cry. I am going to challenge you that religious beliefs are only one way, and that way is right. I am going to challenge you on what love looks like and how it’s given. I am going to challenge you on what’s always been is not how it has to be done, because we are spiritual beings having human experiences, and when we connect with spiritual energy there is no right, there is no wrong, there just is! There is just LOVE!

So, I am full of gratitude for all those individuals who have stood up and said, this “box” is just an illusion, and I am turning it into a full-blown circle that wraps all of us in warm and mushy love for ourselves and others. Thank you to those who don’t see boxes or labels because you all are creating something truly magical that is paving a path for us to walk down, experience, and grow from.

And if you don’t want or like to be challenged, it’s ok. There is no judgement. I only want for each of you to be true to yourselves, whatever that looks and feels like. I am only sharing my appreciation for those who have made me pause and see things differently. Some of those individuals have been my clients and that’s why I find so much joy in what I do. I get to hold space for people to explore and talk about their beliefs, assumptions, gremlins, etc. I get to accompany and witness my clients have energetic shifts that connect with their soul and impact their lives.

What beliefs are you carrying around?

How are they impacting your life?

It’s time to be the main character in your own life story.